My Sacred Cancer Journey

My name is Cally Pivano Tendrick, I was a runner and now I am a stage 4 Cancer Warrior. In November of 2013, I lost my twin sister, Sue, to cancer. ...

You Belong Somewhere You Feel Free…

One last post I wanted to share… My mom was a big Tom Petty fan. Her go to song during her battles was “I Won’t Back Down” which constantly inspired her throughout her fight. I however have since found solace in his song Wildflowers when thinking of her. It...

With a Heavy Heart…

To everyone who has visited this site looking to share tales of hope and inspiration, it is with a very heavy heart that we want to share with you the passing of this site’s founder, the original Cancer Warrior girl, and the strongest woman we have ever met, Cally....

Groundhog Day

Sunday, February 2nd 2020 It’s February 2nd and I’m still here! Ironically, it’s Groundhog Day; get up, get dressed and do it all over again. Despite the repetition, I am so grateful to be alive. It was four weeks ago today that I was discharged from the hospital and...

No More Zombie Days

Tuesday, January 28th, 2020 It is now three weeks and two days, since I was discharged from the hospital. It is also the third day that I have gone all day without crying! It may not seem like a big deal but for me right now, three days without...

My Way

Friday, January 10th, 2020 Today is my fifth day since coming home from the hospital and I am still adjusting to being here. The hospital arranged for hospice and the nurses have been here several times to check in on me. They have prepared us by bringing an oxygen...

Homeward Bound

Sunday January 5th 2020 Part One: Before the Test Results It’s early morning, Sunday, January 5th and I’m still here at the hospital. Today is day number nine; it’s the longest amount of time that I’ve ever spent in the hospital. It’s frustrating because I’m laying here in my...

Let It Go

Friday January 3rd, 2020 As I sit here all by myself secluded in my hospital room, I have decided to make a change to focus on the positive. It’s healthier for me mentally and physically. I keep thinking how I don’t want to hurt my family. I have to...

Angels From Above

Wednesday, January 1st, 2020, Yesterday was New Year’s Eve and for the first time in my life, I spent it in a hospital bed. My good friends Jack & Lisa came to visit me and we had such a nice time. We kept it upbeat sharing funny stories as...

My Heart is Broken

It is New Year’s Eve, 2019. I’m at Robert Wood Johnson Hospital and have just gotten diagnosed with the flu. I’m not here because of the flu; I am here because I have a mass in my heart and a carotid artery that is 90% blocked. My heart really...

Losing Days

Sunday December 15th, 2019 Surgery was performed to remove the tumor from my back on Wednesday, December 4th. The surgery went as planned but I woke up the following Saturday with an excruciatingly painful migraine. My head was pounding and I could hardly see out of my right eye....

Don’t Stop Me Now

Friday, November 29th, 2019 Thanksgiving was wonderful and I am definitely feeling much better physically and emotionally. I am so grateful for that, thank you God. I received such a beautiful surprise the day before Thanksgiving. My niece, Elisha (Sue’s daughter), sent me a beautiful picture of Mom and...

Putting On A Brave Front

Tuesday, November 26th 2019 It is confirmed; I have another tumor. I felt the lump in my back the day after I finished thirty-five rounds of radiation due to the most recent tumor that was removed from my right leg. Dr. Patterson asked me again if I would reconsider...

Nobody Left To Run With Anymore

Wednesday, November 20th, 2019 It is six years to the day that I lost my twin sister, Sue. It’s not an easy day; losing her has been the hardest thing that I have ever had to endure. Sue truly was a warrior and I took for granted that she...

The Light

November 17, 2019 It’s almost 10 o’clock on a Sunday night and I am sitting in the living room on the couch in disbelief. I found another lump last night. Earlier in the day, we celebrated my beautiful granddaughter, Brielle’s second birthday. Later that night, we had some friends...

Touch Of Grey

My 35th and final day of radiation is over! I’m done! Seven weeks of daily doses and by the grace of God, I got through it. It could not have ended soon enough and I am just so grateful for all of the people here at the hospital. Once...

Empowerment

I started a 21 day meditation today with Deepak Chopra. He began the meditation challenges with Oprah Winfrey several years ago which really got me started on the path of meditating. Meditating is something that has radically changed my life and I am so grateful for it. It has...

What’s Missing

I have my last writing class tomorrow and I have enjoyed it tremendously. While I’m sorry it’s over, part of me is relieved. Taking this class while getting radiation and physical therapy was a bit ambitious of me. Even though it only took place once a week, it was...

What They Don’t Tell You

I’ve been reading a book about a woman who overcame breast cancer and her friend who did not. It got me thinking that just as there are five stages of grief, there are also emotional stages of a cancer diagnosis that are very similar. The five stages of grief...

Side Effects

Today I met Karen, a fellow patient who had just received her last radiation treatment. She was a pretty girl and didn’t appear to be very tall as she sat in her wheelchair. She wore a scarf on her head and had the sweetest childlike voice. We started chatting...

Healing With Reiki

Today is Friday, October 11th 2019 and I am happy to say that I have already completed 10 rounds of radiation; only 25 more to go! I learned that the hospital where I get my radiation treatments provides Reiki for free to all patients who are undergoing treatment. While...

Healing Myself

I just finished reading a book called Radical Remissions: Surviving Cancer At All Odds which I learned about from the documentary Heal. A radical remission is when someone recovers against all odds without the help of conventional medicine, or after conventional medicine has failed. The author, Kelly Ann Turner,...

Celebrating Life

My birthday is in three days; I’m have feelings of trepidation before it as I have for the past six years. I am so grateful to be alive, absolutely a reason to celebrate but also very bittersweet because I miss my twin sister, Sue and this will be my...

Learning To Walk Again

Just finished meditating in the garden; I treasure these mornings; it’s so nice to sit outside and feel the sun on my face while my eyes are closed. I feel like I’m in my own natural sanctuary surrounded by colorful summer flowers, magical humming birds, bright yellow finches and the...

Heal

Bit of a rough day, it started when I had to use the bathroom in the middle of the night around 1:00 am. The doorway to the bathroom is narrow so I can only wheel myself to the door and then try to hold onto my walker that has...

I Am A Warrior!

It is the third day that I am home from the hospital; I came home on Friday 8/23. It wasn’t easy but thankfully, Larry was able to get a wheelchair and ramp from our local surgical supply store. He and my son, Rich, were able to get me up...

What Lies Ahead

I am scheduled yet again for surgery tomorrow. This time it’s to remove a large tumor from my good leg, my right calf.  I’ve been trying to keep myself busy today; trying to keep my mind occupied as I am anxious to get this beast removed from me. The...

Twists And Turmoil

After my lung surgery in June, I took time to recuperate and finish up taking care of my Mom’s affairs. I was in the hospital to remove another lung tumor two weeks after she passed so I didn’t have much time to get things done. As the weeks passed...

Another Bombshell

Losing Mom was very hard for me and for the entire family. She passed just one month shy of her 92nd birthday and we felt like she would always be around. She was like the Energizer Bunny; she just kept on going! Losing her was compounded by the loss...

Mom, May Your Spirit Soar

My Mom’s nurse practitioner, Melissa, was scheduled to come by on Friday May 31st, two days after my brother’s funeral. She had performed some tests the week before because Mom was complaining of an upset and swollen stomach. Melissa was coming by to check in on Mom and give...

Danny’s Gone

My brother, Danny, has passed after having his leg amputated twice and developing sepsis. He passed on Sunday May 26th; a week to the day after the anniversary of our father’s passing. I had no idea when he first went in that my visits with him would be numbered....

Daniel My Brother

I just got home a few minutes ago from visiting my brother, Daniel, who is back in the hospital. He had to be readmitted after spending a month in there approximately six weeks ago. They had to amputate his leg below the knee when he was last there due...

Walk This Way

I’m in bed recuperating from the five-hour surgery that I had last week for spinal stenosis.  I only spent 2 days in the hospital but I’m really laid up with pain. Just getting in and out of bed is difficult and painful. I have needed the surgery for some...

Creating Awareness

Prior to learning about the tumor in my lung, I applied to speak at a Ted Talk in Asbury Park, NJ and was chosen to audition. I was thrilled to be chosen and worked ardently gathering research for my speech. The topic that I would be speaking about was,...

Devastating News

I haven’t written in a while… I’ve been super busy, a really bad cold and had some unexpected situations arise. I took the Tuesday after last Thanksgiving off because Mom fell at 3 am the night before. After running some errands for her, I spent the day with her...

Glimpses of Heaven

I went for my quarterly PET Scan on Thursday. It felt similar to the one I had in February when I had the flu. This time, instead of the flu, I had a bad cold. I took a tissue in with me but it was useless. Having your arms...

On The Mend

Ugh…got the flu twice in February. I also had to get my PET scan while I had it and it sucked! I had to fast so I couldn’t take any medication. It was by the grace of God and my meditating experience that got me through it. If there...

Salute to Seniors

Today was a beautifully touching day. A local radio station, NJ 101.5, held a contest called Salute to Seniors. The premise was if you knew of a senior who has made a difference in their community you could nominate them to be recognized.  I decided to nominate my Mom...

Faith Family And Friends

Yesterday would have been my parent’s 70th wedding anniversary. It was also time for my quarterly Pet Scan. I was feeling kind of sad and lonely thinking about Susie; how I would sit with her during her treatments only now it’s me sitting alone. As my mind wandered, the...

Brielle Is Born!

My newest grandbaby, Brielle, was born on November 14th! She is the second daughter for my son, Rich and his wife Kendra; Ava, is their firstborn. Ava was so happy about becoming a big sister. She wants to hold Brielle and even at 3 years of age, she acts...

Happy Anniversary?

Tomorrow will be the first anniversary since the surgery that has changed my life. I am sad to say that while I am very grateful, I am not feeling celebratory. While I should be focusing on the good, I am in mourning for the life that I once knew....

Once A Twin…Always A Twin

My birthday was last Wednesday; it was a very emotional day filled with mixed emotions. Being “twinless” on your birthday when you are a twin doesn’t make you feel like celebrating. However, this year is a bit different. While I am feeling sad missing Sue, I am also grateful...

Finding My No Fear Running Gear

This past weekend I found a backpack in the rear of my closet that I hadn’t seen in a long time. When I opened it, I found my running gear that I had packed away. My Aerosmith baseball cap, running shoes etc. I also found my beloved No Fear...

Back To Reality

I had a good weekend; some friends came by for an impromptu barbecue on Saturday. We sat outside and after dinner we lit a fire in the chiminea. The backyard looked amazing; huge ten foot tall sunflowers abundantly surrounded by an assortment of flowers creating a rainbow of color....

The Summer Of Fun

After my last scan in June came back tumor free, we decided that this was to be the summer of fun! This was going to be a summer that would be embraced and lived to the fullest; at least to the fullest extent that is physically possible for me....

A Disturbing Epiphany

I had a disturbing epiphany three days ago. I was thinking about the tablet that my grandson, Parker, received for his birthday. I was concerned about the consequences of radiation exposure to him and other children because tablets have the same components as cell phones. Remember how we were...

Mom’s 90th Birthday

Yesterday was Mom’s 90th birthday; we all had dinner together and had a nice time celebrating this milestone birthday as a family. The night was bittersweet and I was feeling a bit melancholy because I can see how much she has aged. This could very well be her last...

Rocking With Habitat For Humanity

My friend, Laura, from Habitat for Humanity Monmouth reached out to me to see if I could volunteer tonight to help raise money at a concert at PNC Art Center in Holmdel, NJ. Habitat for Humanity is a benevolent organization that I have volunteered with before. It is a...

Jack Brian Is Born!

My newest grandbaby, Jack Brian, was born on June 13th! He was born on the same day as my grandfather, Antonio and is the second child for my son, Dave and daughter in law, Christa. Parker is their firstborn and my firstborn grandchild. I enjoy spending time with him...

No New Tumors!

Today I received my scan results from Dr. Patterson…feelings of apprehension followed by gratitude and relief. I’m good for another 3 months…no new tumors!!!!!!!!!! What a huge relief yet I was saddened to see a very young girl maybe around the age of 12 or 13 at the doctor’s...