Thirty-Five Rounds Of Radiation Completed!

I did it! My last radiation treatment is over; thirty-five rounds behind me!!!!!! There is a major snowstorm that started last night and made it extremely treacherous but I was not going to miss it! When I came home, I saw a beautiful cardinal outside…was it a sign? Laying...

A Visit To Mary’s Place By The Sea

I was grateful to get a good night’s sleep last night which left me feeling somewhat rested today; at least rested enough to be able to visit Mary’s Place By The Sea. Mary’s Place is a non- profit organization located in a beautiful Victorian home that provides a warm...

Lymphedema Begins

I am now experiencing extreme fatigue and am also developing lymphedema as a side effect of the radiation treatments that I’m receiving. Lymph edema is a chronic condition of localized swelling caused by a compromised lymphatic system. I learned that they perform lymphatic massage to drain the fluid at the hospital...

Making progress

Today is my 22nd day of radiation…only 13 more to go! I met a nice woman in the waiting area who was on oxygen and getting treated for lung cancer. She has also had bladder cancer and her husband was treated last year for prostate cancer. I gave her...

Giving Out Angel Peace Blankets

I began giving out Angel Peace blankets today. Angel Peace blankets are blankets that I had created in Sue’s memory with the intention of donating them to cancer patients. When Sue was getting chemotherapy, the facility was cold and they did not have blankets for the patients. Fortunately, I...

Experiencing The Sacred Bond Of Cancer

Today was day number 18 of radiation therapy. This has been an amazing time for me. As my daily routine has evolved from going to work into going to physical therapy and radiation, I have found this to be a comforting time. Instead of rushing around trying to meet...

Radiation Commences

On Wednesday, December 21st 2016 I started the first of 35 radiation treatments. In order for my body to start healing from the extensive surgery that removed my quadricep muscles, I needed to wait about a month before I could start radiation.  During that month, I endured significant pain, fell...

Surreal Visit To Sloan

We are off to Sloan again, this time to meet with the medical oncologist. We were there two weeks ago to meet with the sarcoma specialist for a second opinion. I agreed to go to appease my husband, Larry and my surgeon even though I am completely opposed to...

Not Letting Sue’s Death Define Me

Tomorrow will be three years since Susie passed from cancer and I lay here today in my hospital bed after having surgery to have a stage 3 sarcoma the size of a softball removed from my left thigh.   In addition to being in shock when I received the diagnosis,...

Dealing with the diagnosis

As the days went by, I tried to avoid thinking about what was happening to me. It was my way of protecting myself by being somewhat in denial and not fully thinking about my disease or the consequences. It wasn’t until the day before the surgery when I met...

Telling My Mom

I had been holding off telling my 89-year-old mother what was going on in the weeks preceding the biopsy. I was her primary caregiver now that Sue was gone and my rationalization was why worry her when there was a possibility that there was nothing wrong with me. She...

My Diagnosis

The day after the MRI, the doctor called to tell me that I needed to see an orthopedic oncologist.  Oncologist??? I left work early in tears as if I already knew my fate. I went to see Dr. Patterson, the orthopedic oncologist on Monday, October 31st 2016.  He reviewed...

Losing My Twin & The Muscle Spasm That Saved My Life

On November 20th, 2013, my twin sister, Sue, passed after a brief battle with an extremely aggressive form of lung and liver cancer. She was diagnosed that August and succumbed a mere three months later. We were extremely close and shared a sixth sense; a bond that transcended words. We...